its not just a child, it is the biggest blessing to both of us, but i feel that being in the relationship would be worse than not being in one.
just how i feel due to the circumstances.
i was just trying to say that i dont feel that the child should be the only reason i get back with the father, as i feel if my heart is not in it the child will notice the tension and will be a very difficult household and would proberbly only end up in a split up later on after subjecting the child to the difficulties of us fighting and not being loving towards eachother more than if we were apart.